during school days, i had been so busy. and when vacation came, no time to go online. i mean, don't have the money to buy time to go online! HAHAHA.
i'm so BROKE! sooow BROKE. if you only know how long i waited to go online. i even have to lie to my mom just to be allowed to go out. *cries*
anyweii, i do have lots of stories to tell about ME these past few weeks.
so, sit back, relax and enjoy reading!
December 9, 2009 :
want to know what has happened to OUR friendship with PRinCESS and the others?
puros plastikan!
well, fortunate of her to win him back. how lucky of her to have dear mario again.
but, who cares? maybe avon? i think so. but anyway, does it really matter if she got mario once again? i mean, avon is into moving on. LET GO OF THE BOY BUT NOT OF THE LOVE. so, does it mean, princess is thinking avon is into competing against her for mario?
LOL. how funny of her. i cant imagine her thinking that way, as if avon is still into HiM! my god! that is so insane!
no one is competing with her. no one is declaring war against her. it's just her who declares war on her own. against whom? i dont know. avon doesnt know. hannah doesnt know. and duh! as if we care. lol.
but the point here is, she is no longer thinking of the friendship we once had. bitches, back-off. are those the exact words she used? mga langaw. oyy merry cris heruela, kami ba yan?. my god. i cant imagine madami na masyado ang nakikisawsaw at online pa nga talaga ang postings. oh ano, bulgaran nalang? ibubulgar ko nalang tong bloggie ko para may panama din kami sa kanila?.
walang 'yang mga babae din yun aa. nananahimik kami tapos may langaw at bitches pa silang nalalaman. as if naman nanakawin si mario. SOLOHiN niyang mag-isa yun!
well, so sad to know everything has come this far, nang dahil lang kay mario. hahai. buhay. SHE WON; doesnt she realize it yet? or, does she just want trouble to become controversial?
you think the friendship is still worth saving after everything? i cant imagine - for all the moments shared together, for all the secrets and advices - she'd be willing to let go of those just to have mario with her and to kick all the bitches that might want to steal her DEAR BOYFRIEND.
"halerr pen. iyong-iyo na po si mario. sayong sayo na siya. walang mang-aagaw niyan. pero sana naman, dont think only of yourself and your own scheme. avon doesnt really care about it. nor do i. think of the friendship. of the love. at least, with that, there'll be a chance that the friendship will be restored. arent you happy anymore that you already have mario with you? arent you happy that he's all yours? no one is competing with you. it's you who's competing against your own self.
and hell! tell YOUR other friends they dare not add damage to what has been ruined already. we dont want trouble. nananahimik po kami. Sana naman manahimik din yang mga bunganga niyo.”
i don’t know what will happen next to us, to our friendship, to princess and mario and to avon. but, whatever might be the result, just go with the flow. if they let go of the friendship, FiNE with us. no one would actually want to be friends with *******s. oops. apologies. LOL.
BiTCHES? we know it already. at least we don’t betray our friends. LOL. if we are bitches, what do you call yourself? LEECHES then? LOL. oops. apologies again.
sorry for the use of words. i just got pissed off with what i’m hearing. don’t mess with us though, because if you do, we won’t definitely BACK OFF.
December 10, 2009
Today is bembie’s 18th birthday. of course, i was invited. however, i dont have the courage to face the others given the situation as tight as what is happening now. honestly, i cant afford to be so plastic in front of them. well, i couldnt blame them. nor can they blame me. in the first place, it was them who set the gap. if they just didnt rightfully mess with us, then, maybe, nothing like this would be happening.
anyweii, well, last night i asked my mother's permission if i could go tonight. well, of course, i already knew what would be her answer - if course it's a NO. neither do i want to go. well, i just want to hear mama not allowing me so that i can have so valid reason not to go to her birthday. of course, part of me is saying i should have come because during my birthday, bembie was also there, and the others. but, no one can blame me for not wanting to come. i cant afford to having smiles for them when the truth is i dont really want to. i want to set things right before the old relationship would be restored. of course i want to be friends with them all. but i dont know if there is chance, once again. after all that's happening. after all the bitch talks.
i only hope one thing, to make things work out right. of course i miss everybody else's company. who wouldnt, right?
and since i am into moving on ALSO, i want for myself to have just a little trip. well, actually, December 12, 2009 would be my cousin's wedding. Papa was coming, and so was my brother. so i decided for myself to join their trip! maybe, i'll find someone who would SOMEHOW replace my thoughts about ED.
so, at that time, i was all alone in going to TAGUM. it was my first time to travel all by myself. and to think it was NiGHT. :) i was thinking that if i am to ride a bus, of course i would get a seat then and there. but guess what? as i climb up the bus, oooppss. it's already full and i have to do STANDiNG OBATiON! yes! it's tru! lol. good thing there was this young gentleman who shared his seat with me. and though i was having difficult time making myself stable, still it's good than not having seated at all, right?
of course the trip was so fun and enjoyable and kinda HOT, literally. i mean, well, i was riding NON-AiR bus, so it should be warm. but i never thought it was warmer than what i expected.
my brother was always texting me where i was and all that. and ooh! back in CARMEN, DAVAO DEL NORTE, ooh.. their christmas lights were soooow GREAT! as iin! if you only have seen it! :D
so, then, i reached tagum and from tagum we rode bus via MATi. i enjoyed the trip, of course! and though it was a loooong trip, still i LURV it! :D
so, upon reaching there, we ate dinner and went to sleep.
the next day, DECEMBER 12, 2009, it was my cousin's wedding.
so, the people were having themselves fixed at BAYWALK HOTEL. i was there also. (ooh. by the way, i was not one of the entourage. i was just a plain expectator). so, back to our topic. i was also at baywalk, waiting for everybody to get dressed before going to the church (which was just a few meters away from the hotel). and since i was soooow bored, i took a slight snooze. i was not able to mind the time. and guess what happened to me next?
well, nagising lang naman ako nang ako ay tinawag ng isa ko pang pinsan. yes, what you are thinking is right! i slept, maybe for almost an hour, i dont know. and i was all ALONE, in the LOBBY. yes, you are right again, i slept at the sofa by the lobby! LOL.
you cant blame me. i was so tired. i was so bored. who would not fall asleep with that?
but anyway, it was really soooow FUNNY! i really wont forget that moment! HAHA.
so, ayun, nagkasayahan. kainan and everything. by the end of the day, we could not go home, of course, it's already night. if we decided to go home, maybe we will reach davao by midnight. thus, we stayed for another night at MATi.
i spent my night taking pictures with my cute nieces and nephew.
the next morning, DECEMBER 13, 2009, i was so bored again and so i decided to take a little walk around the area. well, mati was just like a small municipality. i was thinking i would not be able to live such mountainous area. but though it was just plain and simple, still, i love the place because it's somehow quiet, unlike davao.
so, there, i was walking. i was wearing mini dress (which i wore the day before because i ran out of dress since i only brought clothes good for an overnight stay). i was not thinking of what people will say or what. DUH! i'm from the city, who cares with those from the rural area? LOL.
anyway, i went to a newly opened shopping center which sold very, very CHEAP yet NiCE items! if i only brought money with me, i would be able to buy something. and ooh! i saw some shoes.
on my way back, nabastos pa ako nung isang tao na ewan. napatawid ako bigla. natakot eh. ROFL.
well, it's good that i was there -- at mati. i was able to forget my depression in davao city, somehow. and i enjoyed playing with my nieces and nephew. i was also able to enjoy the tranquility of the area.
but what i hated the most was the part when we reach davao. everything went back to normal. i felt again the same depression i felt before i left davao. thoughts about him came back.
haitx. i wonder, when will i be able to get over HiM?
exams were over last week, but we still have to
anyway, i enjoyed the week because i was busy for the PiNASKUHAN 2009 by the SSG. there was contest, and i was one of the facilitators for our program's representative. Rigil, Siv and I were kinda werla due to the things that should be done. but still, in the end, we were able to surpass such challenge! and good to hear that the MLS program won the third place for the christmas showtime.
well, it's our little brothers and sisters work of talent! yes, the first years were the ones who represented our program, together with Ms. Margaret, Ms. Caren, and Ms. Cynthia. nice to see everyone singing and dancing on stage. :D
and one thing that i could not forget that time, kuya neil made me sing and dance in front of everybody! well, it was like ABS-CBN's showtime where the madlang people would sing, dance, or both or whatever the score they give for the performers.
i was embarrassed, of course. but, what else can i do? ika nga ni Rigil, "Madel, karon pa ka maulaw?". well, he's right. no room for chickens. LOL.
by the end, our program won the third place. and i felt satisfied with that because it's our first time to bring a victory for the program where i worked for it. :D
December 18, 2009:
DEPRESSiON MUST COME TO AN END. NOW.
it has been a long semester for us three (avon, hannah and i). we've experienced a lot of things that we can never forget all our life. we've gone through happiness, sadness, love and even pain of loving. but, since it's christmas season, our hearts should be free from all heartaches we feel. and so we had CHRiSTMAS OUTiNG!
all three of us, and henry van tado went to EL MAGiC, iGACOS to shout our hearts out and release our depression.
hannah and henry had their heart-to-heart talk. avon and i went our way to shouting. HAHA. yes, it was 4 in the morning. i was on my bikini and we were shouting out loud to release all opur hard feelings. it felt good. of course. having shouted that loud. HAHA.
when we went back to davao, it's time to face reality. all of us four decided that whatever happened back in EL MAGiC, it must be left there -- there and there alone. and yes, i ended everything -- my love for HiM, our conflict with Princess and the group and everything else!
iT'S A NEW START FOR OURSELVES AND FOR OUR HEARTS.
December 17, 19, 21-24, 2009
i wanted to complete the 9 mornings of Misa de Gallo. but since i had three absences, i did not make it. and though it's like that, i still had good time of going to church that early. :D
honestly, i was hoping that even for one day, i would be able to see him. too bad i did not...
..until December 24, 2009 came.
its true that when we were at the church, i always looked for him, wondering where he was seated. on the day before christmas, i still looked for him. but one moment came when i just looked around, for nothing, really. that time, the sun had already shone up. as i wandered my head around. ooopps! who's that person i saw? niahaha.
of course it was ED. but i have to pretend i did not see him, although i really wanted to see him that moment. haha. anyway, i saw him and i pretended he did not exist! haha:D
well, i have to do it. i have to. i'm into moving on, right?
when i got home, i saw my cellphone, may nag-missed call. and guess who? niahaha. yes, it was him. i wanted to ask him why he did so. i had second thoughts so i was not able to ask him right away. i was soow curious. of course, i wanted to know if he missed me. blah. blah. he said it was just nothing. he even asked me for a load. i gave him 5, although i dont have load for my own. niahaha. that's what you call STOOPiiDiTY. HAHAHA :D here's the conversation (although it was not with the same exact words).
ED: salamat sa load dhel. so, musta?
ME: oyy ed, next time napud ta text-text. dili man gud ku unli.
ED: ay oy. paload ug oltext. nakita baya tika ganiha ha
ME: dili ku gusto oltext kay unli aku. HAHA :) yea. i know nakita ko nimo ganiha.
ED: pamati
ME: suya ka? tagam. HAHA
ED: owkii. last text na naku ni sa imo. bye
ME: kaw bahala. :)
-- THE END --
HAHA. watta funny conversation, although it was not really funny.
haii.
later this evening, we had christmas party for my nieces and nephews. and it was soow fun seeing them enjoying the night. HAHA. we played and ate and danced and played again.
i had fun too, playing with them, seeing them play and dance and eat! HAHA XD.
christmas really is for everyone -- old or young; no age; no looks; no gaps.
later, we attended the mass. the priest spent 30 minuts for his homily. GAWD! can you imagine it? of course i was bored. and i was not listening anymore, while looking for ED. haha. *stoopiidity strikes*
but still, in the end, i did not see him. maybe it's God telling me to completely let go.
when we reached home, we ate together. i went to my nanay judith's house. spent couple of minutes there then went home and slept. HAHA.
i just slept. i was tired, soow tired to think of anything. :D
December 29, 2009
here i am now, at my brother's house. after almost two weeks of being imprisoned in our house, i finally got out! haha :D
pictures for this post will appear on the next post
*peace out*
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