i'm just tired; that's all <3

he was mine, but not really. i never really had him, so i never really lost him. i guess this is how we'll always be. i had him; he had me (although i only assumed). but then again, there's no US really.

you can never really predict when a person gets tired of loving another person. you can never really say how far that person can go or how long will he/she endure the pain of being unappreciated.

i guess, it's really part of human nature that we long for care, for love despite hardship. maybe it's true that amidst all the pain it's the little joy that counts.

am i making sense here?

well, as for me, it really takes much courage to go for that person whom you really want the most and whom you want to spend your time with. it takes much strength to be absorbent of the pain. it takes and effort to find little happiness in everything that is happening.

yes, it's tough to go through all these especially when you don't know where else in the world you should go.

but, this is how life goes. this is how love works.

it's painful; it's tiresome.

i salute you who love despite pain, despite harship.

but as for myself, i've done my part and i've done my best. i'm tired of being unloved and being pushed away.

i was not born to become a martyr. i was not born to be absorbent.

this is me; and this is how i drive my life.

i've reached my limits. and i cant go anymore. i'm tired. AND iT ALL ENDS HERE.